“Turn everything off for a week and hangout with me and see what happens.”
So far, it's been great! So here's what I have learned:
First of all, I learned that I really need to do this more often. Just 3 or 4 days I felt much better. It's pretty clear though that binge work followed by binge breaks are not the answer. The answer goes back to the design laid out in the book of Genesis: regular periodic breaks.
Second, I learned that just because you aren't working on something, doesn't mean you don't care. Not everything is up to me, and it's not meant to be. Just because I am not actively working on a project, be it audio writing or otherwise, does not mean I am putting it off. We weren't made to be working 24/7. This leads nicely into the third thing I have learned.
Third, we weren't made to be one man (or woman) armies. God designed us for community. Going back to Genesis again God said, “it is not good for man to be alone.” This is the very first time in the Bible where God said something was not good. Of course the context of this verse is more so for God's design for marriage, but I think it can be applied beyond just marriage. God wants families and believers to work together in community. Not all of us are fortunate enough to have that community though, so I would encourage you to seek out a strong Bible-believing church if you don't attend one already.
Fourth, and this is more or less in conjunction with the previous two, delegate. Are you in charge of a creative or work project? You don't have to do it all on your own. As a matter of fact, it can be pretty arrogant to assume you are the only one capable of doing certain tasks. Let others grow by allowing them to share the work load. If you have been unintentionally hoarding all the work for yourself, you'll probably find most of your colleagues or team members are eager to take tasks on anyway. This is not to say you are abandoning the project, you are not abdicating your responsibility to monitor the project, just don't micromanage either.
Fifth, spend time with God. Nothing matters if you don't do this. Nothing. If I didn't spend time with God, then every effort I make is worthless. I think that's what is really starting to hit me recently. Why do I do what I do? God told me at the beginning of this, he doesn't want me to feel like his “employee”. Yes he wants me to co-work with Him and be about his purposes with Him. But he wants me to do this as his friend, as his lover, as part of the bride of Christ. It's not about the goal, it's about the journey, the relationship, and most importantly about who that relationship is all about: the Lord God. If through all this I end up giving up all my projects but getting back in right relationship with my Lord and Saviour, then it would be worth it. I just want to be closer to Him.
Sixth, spend time outside. Believe it or not there is a great big world outside filled with sun and sky and funny animals. My sisters and I went for a walk on Sunday and enjoyed the sunshine. Just make sure you wear sunscreen 'kay? I think I had a mild sun stroke after being out for 3 hours (case in point for binge-ing your breaks). But we enjoyed the time, took photos, saw red tailed hawks and a really funny looking goose that ran across the road in a humorously awkward gate.
Seventh, God doesn't change, but sometimes your perception of Him does. In surrendering certain situations to Him, relinquishing control to Him, He sometimes flips things around and gives you back to you responsibilities you were willing to give over to Him. That was a mouthful eh? Maybe to clear this up we need to turn to Genesis again. I think ol' Abraham would have a thing or two to say about this. God asked Him to sacrifice His son. Crazy eh? Now before you think Christians support child sacrifice, they don't, and neither does God. God was testing Abraham, and when God saw that Abraham was willing to do anything for God, then He told Him not to sacrifice His son. He gave Abraham back, what Abraham was willing to give over to God. God's plan in that situation never changed, but Abraham's understanding of God did.
I know I have a lot more to learn, and I don't even know what it is yet. But I thank God that he is taking me on this journey. I will keep you updated.