Sorry I couldn’t come up with a better substitute name than “Betty”, but coming up with fake names isn’t as easy as it sounds ha ha. Wow, was that a #CanadianApology? Sorry.
I actually wrote this letter before I wrote the recent one to your brother “Charlie”. However I let the Lord lead, and He lead your brother’s letter to be posted first.
Inspired in part by your brother’s letter, I re-read some of our old emails, and listened to some of our various multimedia messages. While it did remind me of the loss of our friendship, it also reminded me exactly why this all happened, why it even needed to happen, and how God used it so powerfully. As you said, “Every experience we go through reveals truths you would never see otherwise. I don't doubt that this whole dilemma was supposed to happen. If it wasn't supposed to happen, God wouldn't have let it.”
I don't know if you will ever read this, but thank you so much for encouraging me, and being a part of what created this blog. Reading back messages you sent me a while ago, well over a year ago now, reminded me of the part you, and your brother, played in inspiring this blog.
It was in the void of communicating with you two, that the original posts for this blog were written. At the time I had said, “I don't think I would have started a blog if it weren't for God's guidance through this present trial.” You in fact pointed out how God had orchestrated this so that he could use me to not just reach you and your brother, but even more people through this blog. “So instead of talking to us about some of those ‘things that you think about,’ you're now able to reach waaaay more people through your blog.” you said.
I can’t speak on behalf of my blog audience, but I imagine they would happily share their gratitude in the comment section, for you and your brother’s sacrifice, that played a part in this blog’s founding. It was all under God’s direction of course, but without you and “Charlie”, I don’t think this blog would be here today.
Thank you for the deep doctrinal discussions we had, though some of them were results of confusions and disagreements. God used you to show me how to reason through these kinds of discussions in a mature manner. It's a valuable lesson, especially since prior to those discussions, my lack of tact when discussing doctrine with another friend, ended that friendship.
I remember the discussions we had about the book of 1 Corinthians, in the over thinking analytical fashion we were both prone too. Looking back, while we differ in how we view the gifts of tongues and prophecy, God used you to get me to dig in for real, and to ask God to make the answer for my life plain to me. It was in this time God visited me in a fresh revival in my spirit. My prayer life, and entire life, has changed through the Holy Spirit's moving in my life, in a personal way.
I'm so grateful that we had those discussions and debates, because they drove me to dig into the word, down to the Greek, and into sincere prayer, on the subject. I'm so grateful for the answer the Lord brought through.
I have, from time to time, missed our discussions. But God really has taken me in amazing directions, both as a result of what happened, and because of unrelated things He's done.
I want to encourage you too. I don't know where you are now in your life, or even geographically. I don't know if you will find this post, and if you will find it in a time of joy or grief. But I want you to know God has a plan for you. That hasn't changed. Listen to His voice and stay in His word.
As you have now entered the adult world, be the adult God called you to be. Don't let the glamour of growing up distract you from the seed God has already planted within you.
You have a gift, and a desire for the Word. Don't let that go. Don't let other things get in the way, no matter how legitimate they may seem. I also want to caution you, to stay open to the Holy Spirit, and to not let your head get in the way of the Spirit's leading. Remember, listening to God’s Spirit comes first, then your head, then your emotions fall last in line.
The Bible is essential, keep it close. But remember the Holy Spirit is your interpreter of the Word, keep Him as close or closer, if that is even possible.
Keep looking up, not in vain optimism, but looking up toward God instead. Don't let your desire to be a realist, deprive you of God given hope. It's not being overly optimistic to expect God to do good things in your life, it's being realistic. But just remember, to avoid putting expectations on what exactly the “good things” He brings into your life will look like. Your "pain investment" will pay off sister, and not because I say so, but because God says so.
I pray for you when the Lord brings you to mind. God bless your whole face Betty.
Your brother in Christ,
WKIT ITLW, Either here or in Heaven.