One year ago to the day I proposed to the love of my life, Hannah Ng. It was on a moonlit carriage ride at Hatfield farm in Nova Scotia. I had it all planned. I thought I was so clever. I even checked when it was going to be a full moon that month just to make sure it would be the perfect romantic setting and there would be enough light at night for her to see the ring. What I didn’t plan for was the fact that the carriage ride went through a forest and you really couldn’t see the moon even though it was a full moon. We stopped at the first spot I could find some light next to an old abandoned stable. Hannah thought I was stopping to take a picture of the stable and wasn’t sure why, since the stable was not very scenic. I took Hannah to the far end of the waggon where we were alone away from the driver.
I had no speech planned because I’ve always been one for big long speeches and rather than over planning it I wanted it to be spur of the moment. I got down on one knee and to this day neither Hannah nor I remember hardly a word that I said at that time. It’s all a blur in our memories. We know I said something to the effect of the fact that I love her and I have grown closer to her and to Jesus through this whole relationship and I wanted her to be with me for the rest of my life and I wanted to be there to make her life better, to take care of her and draw her closer to Jesus. Hannah’s simple response was shock. She repeatedly said “What? No! Shut up!” If the driver had heard us he might of thought she was turning me down 😆. In reality she was just surprised. Taken aback I asked if that was a ‘yes’ or a ‘no’. Hannah said yes and I nonchalantly walked back to the driver and said “OK carry on”. The driver was surprised and a little nervous at my nonchalant behaviour and asked, “Hey I’m half deaf, did she say yes?” I laughed and told him that yes, yes she did. He congratulated us and then we proceeded to go back to the main farm house. Following this we went back to my apartment, ate tacos and watched The Grinch. The perfect end to a perfect day. Looking back a year later, it’s hard to imagine my life before Hannah as more than a foggy dream I once had. Yesterday Hannah and I reread some old notes from my prayer journal, devotion notes and notes from conversations we had when we first fell in love and things I wrote down I wanted to remember. As we read it I was struck by how much I am in love with Hannah. I was struck also by the fact that we have been through so much and God has shown us so much over the years since we’ve met. I was also amazed looking back at my life and all the things that I’ve gone through that had prepared me for Hannah and the things God is doing now with each of us to prepare us for the future. No one on earth knows me better than Hannah does and no one on earth helps me be more of who I truly am than Hannah does. I made a list once about 36 items long that I prayed for in a wife and Hannah met every single one and has so many more attributes that I never knew I needed, that are awesome. Hannah is the most uniquely fascinating person I’ve ever met and something compels me to want to learn something new about her every day. It’s hard to explain, but despite any hardships we have faced I know that God has ordained us to be on the same path together and it’s thrilling. To any single friends who may have read this far in the post, I want to say that being in a relationship does not make life easier. It makes life equal parts harder and better. It’s like switching from standard definition to high definition on a video. It won’t make the ugly parts of our lives and the things we need to deal with in our own personality look better, it’ll just make them more obvious, the good and the bad. But that’s a really good thing and it’s a great way to help deal with the sanctification process. I am so grateful to Hannah and to God for the part they’ve played in helping me to become a better person. And also for the part they’ve played in helping me to learn about grace and not being so hard on myself or others. Hannah, I love you! Morkie forever 😉 ❤️
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